magic

So many of you know that Jake was gone all of last week. Well once he got home I saw him for a few hours or so and then I went to a christian retreat with some of the ladies from my church. I've got to be honest, I really wasn't looking forward to going. I thought for sure it would be all old ladies, the food would be gross and it wouldn't partain to my life whatsoever, stubborn me. Well I went anyways, and I was amazed and completely wrong.

The first few hours was miserable because I had such a negative attitude. I just wanted to go home to see my husband. Not to mention I had just found out some startling news, of something I had no idea about that affected me deeply. Nonetheless that didn't help the situation. However, throughout the services that they had I felt changed. I know that the Lord has something planned for me, as He does all of us, but it was my time. My time to be a better person, my time to be a better Christian, my time to be a better daughter and especially my time to be a better wife. This was my turning point.

I feel refreshed and so much more comforted. I'm going to try my hardest to trust in the Lord and His plans for me, to allow Him to mold me into the person that He would like for me to be and not just what I have for me. Because apparently I'm not doing such a hott job haha! Well anyways, I hope this will benefit me in the longrun and not just last for a few weeks and then end. Its time for a great change in me!! I want to be that light, I want to be the person that lights up a room with a glow given by the Lord Jesus Christ who died on the cross to save me from my sins and that's why I am the way I am today. I want everyone to be drawn to me, and not afraid to talk to me, I want to be approachable. I'm no longer going to stay dormant in a bucket. I'm going to be a beautiful, eye-catching piece for the Lord to use!!!



Now, I would like to end with this...

I love Jacob Douglas Martin with all of my heart and I am so thankful that the Lord has decided to place him, ever-so-gently into my life to encourage me and stand beside me throughout the next 50+ years of my existence. He is human, as we all are. and he makes mistakes, just like me and you, and you and you and you. but he is amazing, more than anyone will ever know. ok. im done now. OH WAIT!!! ANNNNNND, Tasha Brogan had her beautiful baby girl on thursday and she is a porcelain doll. Beautiful as ever and completely healthy! pictures to come...